Thursday, October 10, 2013

World Communion Sunday 2013: In Defense of Psalm 137


Natalie Bowerman

World Communion Sunday 2013

Texts: Psalm 137, Lamentations 1: 1-6, Luke 17: 5-10

 

                When I was in seminary, my girlfriends introduced me to what has now become the “classic” ‘90s sitcom, Friends. We had one favorite episode in particular that we liked to watch together that I was thinking about a lot this week while I was preparing to preach on these texts, and especially this week’s Psalm, Psalm 137. This particular episode begins with most of the principle characters sitting around watching the movie Old Yeller. Lisa Kudrow’s character, Phoebe, walks in toward the end of the movie, and is totally clueless as to why everyone is so sad watching one of her favorite childhood movies. When one of the other characters explains to Phoebe that the reason they’re so sad is because they’re watching the end of Old Yeller, it’s revealed that, ironically, Phoebe had never actually seen the end of Old Yeller. As many times as she’d seen the movie growing up, every time she got within about fifteen minutes of the end of the movie—right after the scene where Old Yeller victoriously saves his family from being attacked by a wolf—phoebe’s mom would turn off the TV and say, “That’s it! The End!” So as they get to the scene where the family very tragically decides that they’re going to have to put poor Old Yeller out of his misery because he’s suffering from rabies, Phoebe is horrified that this scene is in such a sweet movie, and screams at the TV, “No no no! The end! THE END!”

                The reason why I share this with you is because so often our church’s tradition has done with Psalm 137 what Phoebe and her mom did with Old Yeller. We’ve embraced the first few verses, the romantically sad words of a man who misses his home, a man who writes,

By the rivers of Babylon we sat and wept when we remembered Zion.

But we have a problem with the ending. As many times as the words of this Psalm have been set to music, to liturgy, as many times as these words have been quoted in books and in film, we have made sure to stop short of where this heartbreakingly beautiful Psalm takes a turn to anger, and words of violence and vengeance. The last two verses, which say,

O daughter of Babylon, doomed to destruction, happy is the one who repays you for what you have done to us—happy is the one who seizes your little ones and dashes them against the rocks.

Are there more difficult words to read anywhere in the whole Bible?

                It’s no wonder at all that we try to avoid reading these words when we can. What are we supposed to do with these words? These words that are so angry, so harsh, and so downright cruel that that they seem to fly right in the face of everything our faith is about? How can we, as Christians, use these words? And how are we supposed to reconcile words like, “Happy is the one who seizes your little ones and dashes them against the rocks!” with the words of Jesus, who said, “Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you.”? It’s really providence that the Revised Common Lectionary appointed Psalm 137 as today’s Psalm so that we can face these questions together.

                We don’t get to pick what’s in our Bibles. As tempting as it may be, we can’t ignore a passage like Psalm 137. In the thousands of years that have passed since this Psalm was first written, it has remained in our Canon of scripture for a reason. As easy as it may be to do this, we can’t pick and choose which Bible passages we’ll read, and use, and draw inspiration from—and which we’ll just forget about. The Bible, the WHOLE Bible—yes, even Psalm 137—is the inspired Word of God. But, as I’m sure you all know, our Bible offers us much more than the inspired Word of God. The Bible offers us the genuine, heartfelt words of people—people who have lived in the same fallen world as us, and walked through every moment of life, every experience, trusting in God.

                There isn’t much we know for sure about the man who penned Psalm 137—in antiquity, people wrote anonymously—but we do know that he was from the Southern Kingdom of Israel. And from the raw emotion with which he writes that words of Psalm 137, we can be sure that he lived in the Southern Kingdom when it was conquered by the Babylonian Empire. The Psalmist’s words may strike us as chilling and unfathomable, and that may always be the case when we try to read these words. But we can’t understand the psalmist’s words unless we journey with him through his pain.

                So first we need to understand that Judah, the Southern Kingdom of Israel, was not only this man’s homeland. The Kingdom of Israel, in the eyes of this man and everyone he loved, was not just a home. It was a promise. The Kingdom of Israel, symbolically captured by the emotion-filled word “Zion”, was the promised land of the Jews, the sons and daughters of Jacob—Jacob, their ancestor, who God called Israel himself. God delivered his people from enslavement in Egypt through many years in the wilderness, to this, their sacred home—the one and only Israel. Israel was the home of the people of God.

                But it was more than that. Israel was not only the home of God’s people, but of God himself. Under the wise leadership of King Solomon, the Temple was built in Jerusalem—not a Temple, the Temple. And to the people Israel, a people who understood their world in a very tangible, concrete way, the Temple in Jerusalem was not just a symbolic place of worship, but the very dwelling place of God. God LIVED in the Temple.

                And then Babylon came.

                Between the years 587 and 586 BCE, Babylon invaded, conquered, and utterly destroyed Judah. The Southern Kingdom was decimated. God’s chosen home, God’s sacred promise to his people, was obliterated. The Temple, the dwelling place of the Lord, was leveled.

                But perhaps most devastating to the people Israel was not the total destruction of their land, their property, or even their Temple, but the terrorism inflicted on their people. The haunting words of the psalmist drive right to the heart of where his people were hurt the most—watching their children slaughtered right in front of them by the invading armies. After this brutal attack, many of the surviving people of Judah were taken away from their homeland and forced to live in exile in Babylon. They had no home, no family, no future, no hope, and, as far as they could see, now that their Temple was gone, no God. This psalm was penned from the depths of this man’s grief for this senseless trauma.

                And I want to tell you, in case it isn’t clear by now, that I love this Psalm, Psalm 137. This, out of all 150 Psalms, is my favorite. And if that strikes you as odd, or off-putting, or dark coming from your pastor, I want to assure all of you that I do not, in any way whatsoever, endorse violent acts of vengeance.

                And neither, I greatly suspect, did the psalmist.

                Because people didn’t put a date on their writings in these days, we can’t know for absolute certain when this Psalm was written, but we can make a very strong educated assessment that thjis Psalm must have been penned after the exiled Jews began returning to Judah, after the year 538 BCE—that is, after the Babylonian Empire was conquered by the Persian Empire.

                So if we’re going to really understand Psalm 137, then we need to know what this Psalm is, and what it is not. Although on first glance these words might read like a hate-filled Dear John letter to the enemy, this Psalm is not that at all. This Psalm was NOT written to the Babylonians—by the time these words saw paper, the Babylonian Empire was long gone.

                Rather, the way this Psalm came to be is more like this:

                One day a man was in deep pain—deep, deep grief for the most terrible things his eyes had ever seen in his life. And even though these terrible things had happened years ago, he was still haunted b the memories. So he sat down and did the only thing he could—he wrote a Psalm. Really, a prayer to God. He told God what was on his heart—everything that was on his heart. He didn’t try to make it sound good, and he definitely didn’t try to make himself look good. He just wrote.

                When I was taught about prayer, back when I was a kid in Sunday School, I was taught a very specific way to pray, that I’m sure a lot of you know—head bowed, eyes closed, hands folded, saying very nice, gentle words to God. And that is a beautiful way to pray. But it’s not the only way. That’s not the only way that we’re allowed to talk to God.

                It can be really hard to know how to talk to God about the difficult, trying things in our lives. But we don’t have to put on a show for God. God knows us. God knows everything about us. God created every part of us, even the parts we don’t think look so good. And God is as much the God of our sorrow, anger, and grief as he is the God of our joy and thanksgiving.

                When the psalmist sat down and wrote those angry, cruel words, shacking as they may look to us, he was showing a profound, admirable, beautiful trust in God. He trusted God with his heart. He trusted God with his grief. And he trusted God to see him on his worst day—because he knew that even if he sounded like a terrible person, he wasn’t, and he couldn’t compel God to love him any less.

                But, most of all, he trusted God’s justice. The psalmist was really saying, through his words, God, this is too much for me. This is too big for me. I can’t fix this. Please, take this from me, and make it right.

                In time, God did make it right. Friends, if you ever sit down for a minute and just thumb through the book of Psalms, you might hazard a guess that the order they show up in the Bible isn’t the order they were really written in, and it isn’t. Long ago, committees of thoughtful men sat down and numbered the Psalms this way, to be in this order in the Bible. And, intentionally, just two Psalms away from these words of total agony and heartbreak, we hear the words of comfort, assurance, and trust that we find in Psalm 139, which says to us:

For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.

In good times, in bad times, in all times, we can trust in God with the same brazen, fearless honesty as the psalmist. And we can trust in a God who brings healing to even our deepest wounds. And with even the tiniest amount of that trust, that faith, even faith no bigger than a mustard seed, as Jesus said, we can be restored from despair to joy.

                Amen.

Easter 2013: My Name is Mary Magdalene


Natalie Bowerman

Easter, 2013 Sermon

 

                My name is Mary Magdalene. And I’m a follower of Jesus. I love Jesus. And I want to tell you an amazing story about my Lord.

                I’ve been following Jesus for a long time. Ever since he healed me. See, I was afflicted by demons, and Jesus cast them out from me. Ever since that day, I’ve been a new woman. And since Jesus gave me life, I decided then and there that I would give my life to him.

                Other people didn’t recognize me as one of Jesus’ disciples. Really, who could blame them? How could I be a disciple? I wasn’t among that elite group, the twelve that Jesus picked to minister alongside him. And I’m a woman. I mean, a woman following Jesus? I must be crazy, right? You combine that with my past—I mean, you know what they say, that if you’re possessed by demons, it’s because you did something horrible to deserve it. So you combine my past, my reputation, and the fact that I’m a woman, and, wow, it’s a flat-out miracle I didn’t face some serious consequences for daring to be in the presence of this man, this esteemed Rabbi, let alone following him everywhere. Gosh, even I’m surprised I did that.

                But Jesus wasn’t. You see, that’s why I love him so much. I mean, I would have expected any man like him who wanted to keep his good name to have nothing at all to do with me. Or, at least, to heal me quietly, and then tell me in no uncertain terms that I was never to come around again.

                But Jesus isn’t a man who cares about his good name, his reputation, at all. Jesus acts purely out of love. Seriously. All the time. He acts out of love. And he loves everyone.

                And, let me tell you, this man does not give in to peer pressure.

                Really, it wasn’t as if Jesus tolerated sinners like me. He welcomed us. With open arms. He came to us first. We were his priority, his beloved. And he defended us.

                And I can’t even begin to tell you how much grief Jesus took for that. For befriending people like me. Women—and we’re untouchable in our own right—sinners, the sick, even people who have that awful leprosy. I mean it, Jesus even welcomed those people. And he wasn’t afraid to let them touch him, either. I mean, surely a devout Jewish man like himself wouldn’t let us ritually impure people touch him, would he?

                But Jesus doesn’t care about things like purity laws. Like I told you, Jesus acts out of love. Love. All the time. Even when no one will support him. Even with people everyone else really hates. Like tax collectors. Seriously. Tax collectors.

                And he doesn’t look down on us. He doesn’t judge us. He doesn’t treat us like we’re different from anyone else. He even treats the women who follow him—like me—like we’re equal to the men.

                And let me tell you, there have been serious consequences for Jesus’ actions. And I thought it was bad in the beginning, when the Pharisees and Scribes used to get on his case all the time. Constantly. And they even started looking for ways to trick him. To take him down a notch. To get him to start following the rules like everybody else.

But Jesus never let them get him down. My teacher, my beloved teacher, he never stopped reaching out. And a lot of the time, when the Pharisees and Scribes tried to stop him, he would just use their actions as an opportunity to do more teaching. Like this one time, when Jesus was eating lunch with sinners and tax collectors, and he heard the Pharisees gossiping about him off in the distance, Jesus actually got up—true story—and in front of everyone he told this parable about this father who forgave his son for sinning against him.

                I’ve never met anyone more brave. Or wise. I meant it when I said it, Jesus is my teacher. He has taught me so much about how to live like God wants me to, how to live so that the world will be the kind of place God wants it to be. I take Jesus’ teachings to heart, and I follow them in every aspect of my life.

                I love Jesus. But loving Jesus all this time hasn’t just been these good times I’ve been telling you about.

                Something really horrible happened last Friday. And I think Jesus tried to prepare us all for it, he tried to warn us. I think he knew. I just didn’t understand.

                I saw Jesus arrested. I saw Jesus tried, like a criminal. I saw Jesus abused by the Romans. And last Friday, they crucified him.

                I was there. I was there to the very end with Jesus. I was there at the foot of the cross, crying for my Lord. Me, Jesus’ mother, his mother’s sister, Mary, the wife of Clopas, and the disciple that Jesus loved. We were there with him the whole time. We wouldn’t leave him.

                That was the darkest day, the day my Jesus died.

                But I’ve devoted my life to Jesus, and even after his death I vowed I wouldn’t leave him.

                But then the most amazing thing happened. I just have to tell you about it. I can’t keep this in.

                You see, this morning, I went to his tomb. I knew exactly where it is, it’s in the garden near where they crucified him. I went there to be with my Lord. But when I got there, the stone, the giant stone that had been sealing his tomb shut, was rolled away. The tomb was open.

                I ran for help right away. Who could have opened his tomb? No one’s strong enough to push a stone that big. I was so afraid of what someone might have done to my Lord’s tomb, of what someone might have done to my Lord.

                So I found two of Jesus’ disciples, Simon Peter, and the one who was at the cross with me last Friday, the one Jesus loved.

                And I told them, “They have taken the Lord out of the tomb, and we do not know where they have laid him!”

                And Peter, and the disciple that Jesus loved, they came running. But when they got to the tomb, they just saw what I saw—an empty tomb. And the linen wrappings that Jesus was buried with, just sitting there, neatly folded.

                And these two men, they didn’t know what to think either, so they just left.

                But I stayed. And I cried there at the tomb. Wasn’t it horrible enough to lose my Lord last Friday on the cross? Couldn’t they have at least left his tomb untouched, so I could visit? I felt so helpless and lost, I didn’t even know where Jesus was. And I was all alone.

                But then I looked into the tomb again. And sitting there, where Jesus had been, were these two angels. And they asked me, “Woman, why are you weeping?”

                And I told them, I was weeping because my Lord was gone, he was taken away, and I didn’t know where they had laid him.

                Then I turned around. And this man was standing behind me.

                But I didn’t recognize him. I was so distraught with grief that I just assumed he was the gardener, and I started pleading with him, Please, if you moved my Lord, tell me where he is, I’ll bury him myself!

                As long as I live, I will never forget what happened next.

                He called me by my name, “Mary!”

                And I recognized him. My Lord! I responded, “Rabbouni!” My teacher! My teacher. My Lord, my Jesus, who three days ago was dead. My Jesus. Have you ever known such joy?

                He told me not to hold on to him, not to hold on to his tomb, because tombs are for the dead. And this whole weekend I thought Jesus would be there forever, in that tomb.

                But he’s not dead. He’s alive. And he doesn’t dwell among the dead, he’s going to heaven soon to be with God. But he trusted me—of all the people in the world, me, me, a sinner, me, a woman, ME—he trusted me to go tell his disciples what I’m now telling you.

                Jesus is risen. Jesus is alive. Jesus is not dead. Jesus has defeated death. There is no such thing as death anymore.

                Life wins. Love wins. Love has overcome death. And love saves. Jesus has saved us, and he saved me. He saved me from my sin, over and over again. And in the place of my sin, there is now nothing but his love.

                And I’m telling you this so you can tell everyone you know, tell everyone, so the whole world will know, that Jesus, my Jesus, our Jesus, has overcome death. Jesus is risen today! And he lives forever. And by his amazing live, through the saving power of his love, we live forever, too.
                Amen.